Jessica

So its been a long weekend. It feels like he has been in the hospital for a week already and it has only been a couple of days. Like it's been mentioned before it is an emotional roller coaster ride but we are making it through. Our family has found more faith and testimony through this trial and that has been a blessing. We love our Savior Jesus Christ and we understand our Heavenly Fathers plan so much more. Not that we didn't know these thigns before but for some reaosn by going through all of this it really shows a real perspective of it. It puts us in a place that is not describable. For myself it has put the word "life" into a whole new perspective. I guess I never really realized how precious life is. In just a moments time life can be changed from being actively playing basketball to laying in a hospital bed with 10 different machines hooked up to your body just so you can live. In a weird way I love just sitting in Hunters room and looking at that little BIG brother of mine. Seeing him so helpless just really shows that it doesn't matter how big or strong you are, anything can happen. This has also given me an outlook on how it is so important that we make good choices in life. I have been riding on the front seat of the roller coaster ride along with my parents and there are times when you cant help but let your mind wonder. Many times the thought of him not making it through this has crossed our path but there is peace and joy in my heart because I know if that was ever the case that Hunter would be in our Heavenly Fathers presence. He has been living his life the way he should. There is no doubt in my mind of where he would be. Hunter didn't know that he was going to fall off a car and get badly injured to the point he would need life support. There was no way for him to do a quick repentance process to make sure things were clear so if he was to die he would be saved. This right here along with this trial and given me an evaluation of my own life I find myself asking myself am I where im supposed to be? I keep thinking of the verses in Alma 5...If we were to die are we prepared to meet God at the judgement bar? Lets face it. All of us are going to die someday, it's something we can't stop from happening. I am just so proud of my little brother. He is such a great young man and a joy to have in life. I can't imagine life without him so I try not to. Remember the good times is what helps me get through this. Especially when I'm in the room with him. I can be strong for everyone else in the waiting room and else where but when Im in the room with Hunter that is when its the hardest. However I found if I think of things that we have done in the past I find myself laughing inside and once in awhile I'll laugh out loud. Hunter is such a funny kid! Oh boy can he make me laugh. I have SOOOOO many stories I could tell. For example I will never forget this story.... When I was in high school I was getting ready to go out running. Since Hunter has always been a bigger kid I would always invite him to go with me. I remember when I asked him if he wanted to go get a good work out in with me he turned and looked up at me. He was sitting at the nintendo, he put down his control and showed me his thumbs. Then bending them (as if they were flexing) he said "look how strong these are!" He turned back to the game and started laughing. I fell right to the ground laughing. I have been really close to Hunter the past couple of years. I love being around him. I still do... even in this conditions Im glad he is still with us and fighting the battle. We have to remember that Hunter knew in the preexistence that he would have to go through this but I see that boy saying "I will do it, give me a body!" He is strong and a fighter, he will get through this and so will all of us. Keep your faith and hope high. I know your prayers have helped him and I know its a trial for all of you as well. I just hope all of you are doing well. If there is anything I can do for any of you please let me know. Really don't be afraid to ask me for anything. I would love to help anyone with anything they need. We are all in this together. Thank your for your love and support.